Today I painted. I painted because it has been on my "to do list" since last November to touch up spots in the kitchen. I painted because I have been struggling to be motivated and productive during these days after you left. I finally pulled myself together to do something constructive and it felt good. However, these feelings of productivity quickly got replaced by feelings of sadness. I cried. I cried because I felt I was painting over a memory of you. I washed away the ch
This was the last day I spent with my little girl....it was the same day she passed away. I find it ironic that she left all of us, leaving the message (on her dress )to "Be Happy"
Kayla was the happiest baby I know, always smiling and laughing. Her happiness lit up a whole room and spread among every person that came across her.
Without her, a piece of my happiness was taken away. I feel sad and angry thinking about how it is so unfair and how many things Kayla and myself
Ever since I had to say good bye to my baby girl, I have been waking up at 2 A.M. every night. This being the 5th night in a row, naturally I decided to look up the significance of the number two: TWO: symbolizes partnership. As the second number it symbolizes the union and peace between different entities. It seeks to end separateness and unite for the greater good. Individuals with a life path of 2, serve to make peace where ever they go. I truly believe my baby girl was se
For some reason my mind is filled with sunflowers when I think of you. So beautiful, vibrant, and full of life. A symbol of the sun, always bright and always shining. Kayla, you will always be my "happy flower". You have brought so much love and light into so many lives with your smile. I will never understand why you had to leave so soon. My heart hurts so bad. Keep shining bright baby girl.